vetlongwalks home & pf

let me get a thundering "WOW!!!" out of the way first. i want to shout a loud WOW because i just realize that in a few years from now, the next big decade i'll hit will be the big FOUR ZERO. r-e-a-l-l-y. looking back at the years that had been, it got me thinking - were there things in the past that i could have done differently? on one end, i'd say - definitely there were things i could have done differently in my life. but on the other end, i couldn't shrug off the thought that if i'd done things differently, then i wouldn't be what i am now.

september 15, 2012 - a date forever etched in the mind of one of us five. to help her remember that day, here's a few pictures from the photo booth company during her wedding. i got the pictures below from the facebook page of kramfotobooth under juv and joan's wedding album. i don't care much about photobooths as i usually don't know what to do or how to act, but this one is different. i actually remember having fun doing this. so, to continue with my "reminiscing mood", i give you my friends, and their family.

we all met for the first time in 1996 as freshmen of u.p. cebu college's psychology program. miss debi, marini, ivy, and joan were of the same circle, while i keep my own company here and there. we were friends all through our four years of college nevertheless. i was adopted into the fold when miss debi and i found ourselves jobless. she fresh from a stint in manila, while i did a 2-year hiatus from the world after graduation in 2000.

photographs are not common in our family. thus, i don't have many pictures of me as a child. below is the oldest, and perhaps the only picture i have of me as a child. this faded photograph of me was taken on my 2nd birthday, almost 32 years ago.

how do you lose something you never had? the question keeps popping in my head. i don't why. so, i decided to pause and look the question in the eye and see if something jumps out. firstly, is the question logical? can you actually lose something that isn't in your possession? secondly, should the question be taken at face value? but what could be the underlying meaning behind the question, if there's any, at all? lastly, is the question coming from the 'bottomest' pit of my gut? am i suppose to realize something from the question? if the question comes from my innermost self, does it mean there is something out there waiting to unravel? but that the question remains in my deepest pit could only mean the answer to it could actually blow my mind away, and i'm just not ready to hear it. does this mean i'm in denial over something? wowaah.. let's stop right there. i don't think my questions make sense. do they? to you?

a week ago, i mentioned in this blog post that the summer heat in the philippines has started to get to me. chopping the mane off has been dominating my thoughts the past days. well, today isn't any different and the result is this:

my hair? that is the question that's been nagging at me the past few days. see, it is officially SUMMER here in the philippines and the SUN is at its mightiest and brightiest. i normally don't grow my hair very long. primarily because i hate having to maintain it, exert extra effort at combing it every now and then. over the years, i usually keep my hair "wash and wear" style. i'm fortunate enough to have straight hair that i could just finger-comb it, and all is well with the world. but with the summer heat, having a long hair is kind of a nuisance to me. my bangs constantly irritate my eyes, and with so much hair on my head, i feel like i'm inside an oven - literally. thus, each day since last saturday, i couldn't stop thinking about chopping my mane off and have a boy cut. so what's stopping me?